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"Inevitably,

when we stay open to ourselves for any period of time,

we begin to feel anxious,

intuiting that something uncomfortable may arise.

This happens because we are "pushing the envelope" of our personality.



We can take heart because experiencing some degree of anxiety during transformational work is A GOOD SIGN."

When we move beyond our old defences, we also start to experience the very feelings that we have been defending ourselves from all our lives.


This explains why we can have fulfilling spiritual experiences and then quickly find ourselves in a fearful,
reactive,
or negative state again.


The process of growth entails an ongoing cycling among letting go of old blockages,
opening up to new possibilities in ourselves and then encountering deeper levels of blockage.

Although we might wish that spiritual growth would be more linear and that it could be accomplished in one or two major breakthroughs, the reality is that it is a process that we must go through many times on many different fronts until our whole psyche is reorganized.


Spirtual growth is also a process that requires us to be gentle and patient with ourselves.

Frustration,
specific expectations about our growth,

timetable for spiritual progress,

and disparaging ourselves when we fall short of our expectations are all common reactions,        but they do not help.



It took years to build up our ego defences, so we cannot expect to dismantle them overnight.

Our soul has its own wisdom and it will not allow us to see anything about oursleves (much less realise it) until we are truely ready to do so."




from "The wisdom of the Enneagram - The complete guide to psychological and spiritual growth for the nine personality types"

by Don Riso & Russ Hudson

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